Break
How do I brake a freight train?
I am approaching my sixth anniversary of derby. The claws are deeper than ever before. But this moment is my one chance to normalize, become a human again. Do my laundry in a timely fashion. Face the world unbruised. Write the words that need to be written. But all I can think of is the floor of the rink, empty and waiting and the thousands of improvements that need to be made prior to next year to be the skater I want to be. I miss my team, disassembled into components and inserted into new positions in other machines.
I am looking for a sort of spiritual transcendence. But the secret is, I have never come closer to it than slamming down to the floor on wheels.
It’s time to finish other unfinished things. And maybe let my body heal a little bit too. I’ll attempt to be a slacker, in order to pick up the slack I’ve left in every other corner.
1:46 pm • 16 October 2011 • View comments
Losing
Things I have lost recently:
A teammate.
A love story.
A helmet.
An idea.
A tiger shirt.
A bout.
Weight.
Words.
Breath.
Time.
1:15 am • 26 July 2011 • View comments
Home
I always thought I would live:




And maybe some day these will all be true. But it looks like in a month I will be living:

Now I have to learn how to decorate or somesuch. Lest you think I am not domestic, I cannot wait to get back to cooking and baking. I just have a low threshold for paint chips, especially since all the ones I like are some form of gray.
4:20 pm • 30 April 2011 • View comments
And then I ate a lot of food.
I went to the Botanical Garden to get my me on. I had lots of deep, penetrating thoughts about the life cycle. Also about how I’m certain I’d rather be a tree than a flower. And, sure, samurai sword fighting.
Ladies and gentleman, getting older isn’t scary at all. Being able to wander the grounds of some place like the garden on a day when most others in the city were preoccupied with a certain national pastime, all by my lonesome and without any purpose but breathing—this is getting older. And it is simply brilliant.

11:35 pm • 31 March 2011 • 1 note • View comments